all in all, she does has a point.
i do have various things to enjoy and happy and blah blah
he is being quite a good boy tonight
still, i can't deal with, you know, he having any kind of a life
which makes me preety much an evil cancer.
and i .. hell it doesn't even ocurrs me to actually enjoy any of them.
there's just no perspective. no horizon
there's just a big empty hole in front of me
have i brought it on to myself? i really, really don't think so.
is not like i.. fucking asked for it so badly i finally got all the misery so i can complain happyly.

SHEET it's really good i don't have a gun.

we see everyone else's sheet so clearly.